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My Daily Bread

This morning I was reading from Matthew where Jesus teaches his disciples how to pray. He says to ask of God,  "give us this day our daily bread". This first trimester has been the hardest of them all. Even after we had a miscarriage at 11 weeks and pregnant again two weeks later- which was like 26 weeks long of a first trimester- this is worse. I feel pretty sick and miserable most of the time, I'm exhausted, and so very emotional. But I have seen the Lord provide my daily bread, day in and day out. He fills me up. He gives me all I need for each day. And not to just survive, but to laugh and find joy, and rest. One of the greatest gifts He gives me on a daily basis is waking me up each morning to spend time with Him. Liza still fluctuates in her wake up time and so the Lord wakes me up at the right time so we have enough time to spend together. Usually it's around 5:45. Today it was 6:30. And Liza slept in until almost 8:00! That's unheard of for her but the Lord provided me extra rest when He knew I needed it desperately today. And it's other things to like my wonderful mother-in-law bringing me a milkshake at night because nothing else sounded good. Like Dannelle spending the morning with us and helping me with the girls. Like being able to nap  the whole time the girls do. And best of all right now, two precious girls who play together so well that when I need to, I can just sit on the couch and rest and watch. (Also lately they have been holding hands in the car which makes my heart throb and swell with joy!)

I'm so greatful for my time with Him in the morning, it fills me up for the rest of my day, focuses me on Him, and then sets my mind to see all the way He provides my daily bread. His grace is enough.




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